Being a small business owner is no cake walk! Last year, I picked up a few contracts to save for our wedding. I can't tell you how much I missed being my own boss. But that said, there's a certain feeling of security while working contract. Paychecks are regular, you have people around you to socialize with, you learn a different style and best of all, your schedule coordinates with everyone elses schedule in your life. But after a while, I felt my creativity sliding and I craved the freedom I had when it was just me and lamp business. My days were long. I'd wake up early to fill orders or do admin things, my nights were full of either wedding planning or more orders. There was no room for creative thought. I missed folding for fun. I missed my creativity. As a result, I cut back on working on lamps until our wedding and until my contract ended. It's hard to admit defeat like that. But I wasn't happy and my priority at the time was making sure we had enough money for our wedding. It wasn't all bad though. I did enjoy working in the graphic design medium again. And that inspired me to bring the business into a new direction. It's going to take time, energy, dedication and dash of creativity to get there but I can't stop and won't stop creating. It's just in my blood.